Friday, April 20, 2012

Oh boo!

My body, at it's finest.  Based on crazy wacko temps and a late cycle p4 test, I did not ovulate.

I could have sworn........

We'll resume trying when hubby gets back over the summer.

Until then, I'll enjoy the distraction that is Little Miss, fur-babies, family and friends!

Thanks for all the support and encouragement.  I'm sure I'll need some more come summertime! :-)

Tuesday, April 17, 2012


I've dabbled with this before but not really by choice. I have always had a "sensitive tummy" and steered clear of certain foods or ate them knowing I would be paying for it later on. The most recent was the first 7 months of Little Miss' life... She had bad tummy problems so I had eliminated wheat, dairy, garlic, peanut butter, and tomato. I felt so good {and dropped weight like crazy!}

And then I got the first PCOS diagnosis.

Didn't think anything of my diet other than to stay away from hormones, pesticides, and antibiotics that is pumped into foods.

My thyroid is bonkers. I believe wholeheartedly that my thyroid is not the problem but that it is a symptom of an underlying cause. Dr agrees. Suggests food I'm consuming could play a role in that too.

Food plays a role in every aspect of our life should we want to believe that or not!

Now we're trying to conceive baby number two and the darn PCOS diagnosis is back, with a vengeance. {I thought pregnancy was to lesson or get rid of it?} Argh.

So off to google I go... I am coming upon site after site unofficially referencing gluten sensitives with infertility, PCOS and Endometriosis specifically. Then comes up dairy and soy. We all know soy interrups the hormonal receptors so we should steer clear of that even though it is seriously found in like everything!

At the "establishing patient" appointment today with the new Dr {whom I officially love!} he absolutely agreed that it sounds like my symptoms are all pointing to a definite gluten allergen or even just a sensitivity with how my wacko body is. He told me immediately following the blood draw that I should eliminate gluten and even if the test comes back negative, I should still eliminate gluten for a few months and then reassess.

He ended up running a couple panels on me for household allergens and the common food allergens. We'll talk once those labs come back and go from there. Hey, maybe removing gluten would also eliminate the horrid tonsil stones that continue to plague me?

So I'm searching for any personal stories... Have you eliminated gluten, dairy, or anything else from your diet? What did it help with? How long did it take for your to notice changes? What was the hardest food to give up? Tips?

Sunday, April 15, 2012


We've been living one abnormal life the last year. It seems to be continuing right through the middle of June and only then will we be able to rest our heads on our pillows without yet another lingering engagement to displace us from home...

Yet then it really will not happen. Once this normalcy happens, we will hit the ground running looking for a house to buy because we have to give notice to move with adequate timing! We are hopeful actually being here that the search will go much smoother than our week long trip from you-know-where house hunting trip. :-)

So really, when will normal happen? Once we are established in a house? I'm hopeful we will then soon be welcoming another baby into the family so then it would be establishing another new normal... Maybe I should kiss "normal" goodbye? : -) Life sure is more fun that way! So farewell "normal"!

Thursday, April 12, 2012

Diaper rise

Tall 17 month old- needing cloth diaper help!

Bumgenius 4.0 and FLIP both fit the best right now. Highest rise. Not crazy about the microfiber.

Swaddlebees Econappi are softer and absorb more with the lovely bamboo inserts but have a much lower rise.

Both diapers completely unsnapped in the rise. I have concerns they will not last through potty training with the rises as they are.

Any recommendations on diapers best suited for tall babies but are trim, super soft, and preferably natural fibers?

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Pinch Me!

In total denial that we are living in this beautiful city...

"The Queen City"
What's not to love? Seriously.

Mountains... Oh, I cannot wait to visit the mountains during every season!

The beaches... My bucket list includes camping ON the beach! What a perfect place to do it right here in North Carolina!

Not to mention, visit the Biltmore House! Oh how I've always wanted to go, especially at Christmas!

There are MANY more things I'm looking forward to about our new life in North Carolina but had to share these!

Ever been to North Carolina? Must see/experience recommendations?

Tuesday, April 10, 2012


I'm so setting myself up for failure... Really. I'm so hopeful my body "remembered" and is happy to be pregnant again. Funny. I know.

Every single "symptom" during this horribly long two week wait has me convinced I'm not just PMS'ing but indeed pregnant! It's totally the former though.

I look back at all the notes I took the four years before getting pregnant with Madelyn and I see many similarities. Similarities that all point to this ending with a huge bar of chocolate and a tear stained pillow case.

It seems as though this is the season for pregnancy... Cute little pregnant bellies are everywhere! Itty bitty babies that I can barely get a glimpse of having my uterus doing flip flops. Little Miss repeating her new favorite phrase over and over again of "Hi baby" have me hopeful she is perfecting it to say to her new baby sister or brother. Randomly being told that "motherhood is good to me" and I am "glowing so maybe I'm pregnant now" make me break out the stupid home pregnancy tests only to see the evil reminder of our last infertility journey, a stark white test.

God's got it. I know. I am at an amazing sense of peace right now despite my best human efforts to fight it. I am freezing time with my Little Miss and holding onto the little bit of babyhood she has left in her as it seems to be fading by the day... I do not want to miss that moment when she fully enters toddler hood and I'm left with only memories of her baby moments. Time is passing much too quickly to take for granted a single second with her!

So to everyone wonderful what my phantom pregnancy symptoms are that I refuse to acknowledge to the world unless it actually comes to be, well, you'll just have to wait and see if they get acknowledged if the day comes and I am indeed pregnant!. :-)

Monday, April 9, 2012


North Carolina is now home! Just have to unpack...

Our first impressions here have been so over the top incredibly hospitable people! They make real sweet tea! And of course, the drivers know how to drive! :-)

We are so excited to be here and have actually already made our first 4.5 hour road trip to visit family in Georgia! That was really nice...

We miss our family back in Missouri though but so thankful they fly for free! :-) *Hint Hint*

Now if we could just hurry up and get settled here- Doctors, Church Home, Find a house to buy, etc.

Friday, April 6, 2012

Naive' emotions

Officially in our first two week wait trying for baby number 2... I have so many feelings about this cycle. Feelings of hope that maybe, just maybe, we will be one of those couples that gets pregnant the first cycle trying.

Then I feel like a hyprocrite. If we get pregnant on our first cycle trying, does that discredit all my infertility feelings? When talking to other IFers, have I lost all credibility for empathy or would our initial journey still count for something?

I do not want to ever forget the feelings of infertility. It is apart of me, will always be. This cycles success or not.

Of course I want this first cycle to work out... I want to see two pink lines. I want to hear our baby's heartbeat for the first time in a couple weeks. I want to deliver our baby just before ringing in the New Year. I want to see Little Miss meet her baby sister/brother for the first time.

I have fleeting moments of just knowing that this cycle worked and then I am brought back to our reality of PCOS diagnosis and fear the past will repeat itself.

The roller coaster ride continues...