No Internet!

We're in the midst of moving and as of like 5Am tomorrow we'll be disconnecting the computer... We were told that it will not be reconnected to the Internet until like July 5 or something like that. Yep. I'm having de ja vue as exactly a year ago I was going thru this same thing with having to wait to get it reconnected... So, I'll post again once we're back up and running to the World Wide Web and hopefully will be able to share photos of our new house and let you decide if I'm crazy or if the house really does resemble Jon and Kate Plus 8's original house! Not that I want to follow their path of having sextuplets and all nor ending in divorce... That's a whole other post! I must go help hubby with some final things around here before we can crash for the last time in this house!!!!!!!!!!! Oh, I'm soooo excited to be getting out of here and out from under or horrid landlord! Lots of stories to share there once all is said and done... :-)

All that just to ask you to please bare with me for the next week until life becomes somewhat normal again. :-)

It's my THYROID!!!!

I do believe we finally have answers here!!!! It feels so wrong to be so excited about having an answer! So here are the numbers, tell me what ya think! For comparison, here's the previous numbers...

TSH - 5.780 (HOLY COW!)
T4 - 6.5
T3 - 7.4

Estrdoil - 39
FSH - 3.7
PTT - 29
Protein S - Waiting on
Natural Killer Cells - Normal
Lupus Profile - Negative
Factor V - Normal
Protein C - Normal
ANA - Waiting on
MTHFR - Waiting on

Based on that, and what little google'ing I've done on the rest of the results, Thyroid is the culprit! Oh, I so hope and pray that after the Endo appt August 27th I get some sort of normal cycle back and TTC will fall into place shortly there after!!!!!

So, anyone have any success stories of having Thyroid out of wack only to start meds and get pg shortly there after???? :-)

Today's Excitement!

Today started out as usual. Well, mostly usual. I played with my nanny boys. Listened to them airing out their lungs. (Today, we had a teether and sleep deprived baby) After food and naps and all were happy we headed out to LabCorp for the long awaited blood profile. I don't know if that is the right name but it's working for me.

I signed in at 1:07pm.

Not another person in the office...

After spending time deciphering the writing on the order, the gal made a comment on "draining my blood". I knew it would be a lot of blood exiting my body. I just never realized exactly how much!

When she was finished getting all the viles she would need, I requested to take a photo to prove it to you all just how much it was! Yes, please, count.

13. 13 viles which would soon be full of my blood. The most I'd ever had before was like 4. 13 freaked me out, just a bit.

So we started. She was handing me the full viles to put back in the holder and would continue filling. Around the 9th vile, I felt light headed. My job as vile putter-backer was over. I was concentrating on breathing... I couldn't pass out as I had the babies with me!

When all was said and done she put cold washcloth on my forhead and neck. She fanned me. She gave me cold water to drink. She reminded me to continue breathing... And of course, she entertained the boys as they were starting to get impatient at this time. She was FANTASTIC!

We left the office at 2:22pm. Almost 1 1/2 hours! HOLY COW! I decided after going thru that, I was going to treat myself. We walked two bulidings over to Oberwise and had some nice ice cream.

The boys watched while I enjoyed. :-)

It was a Peanut Butter (Protein to give me energy of course!) and Chocolate Sundae bowl. YUM YUM!

So now the waiting begins... I was told the longest it should take is 2 weeks. But I did get a print out of all the tests and no, I did not request the ones that were additionally recommended (thank you for your thoughts) as I just got them today but boy am I glad I did as I don't know if I could have handed another few viles being taken from me!!!!!!

So here's where we stand right now... There's always availability for a "next time" for whatever labs that may have been missed (like the Fasting Insulin, Glucose, Testosterone, etc.)

Estradiol - Antinuclear Antibodies Direct - FSH, Serum - PTT, Activated - Thyroxine (T4) - Triiodothyronine (T3) - TSH - Lupus Profile - Natural Killer Cell Surface Ag - Factor V Activity - MTHFR - Protein C Antigen - Protein S Antigen

All these tests, if not for Insurance, would cost well over $2,000!!!!!! Thank God for Insurance!

So many emotions, only one shared.

I feel as though we may finally be getting somewhere... My period arrived yesterday, Thanks Provera! Today I called and the crap load of blood work is scheduled to be done on Wednesday! I was told Wednesday as one of the tests involves my blood being frozen and sent out and they did not want the weekend to get in the way. I don't remember which test this was... I was asked if anything I specificially wanted so I mentioned TSH, T3, and T4 again. I was also told, this is what I remember, is being tested for... Can you recommend anything else??????

Prolactin
LH
FSH
Thyroid
T3
T4

Protein S
ANA
MTHFR
APA
Lupus something or another (Auto immune disorders)

No fear. I did ask for a copy of all the results and will surely share everything once I have it! I was told they would call ASAP if anything came back abnormal, otherwise, they would contact me once all the results are back to go over everything at once.

Ice Ice Baby!

is this not the cutest thing ever? And so charles... His all time favorite song! Ha ha! Sound quality Isnt that great but the best you get for a call phone video. :-) so deal with it! and as a matter of fact yes- it does sit out all year long regardless that it is a snow man and i purchased it during the christmas season...

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Officially looney toones am I???

What does it mean if one sees faces in ones bread? Look closely... You can so see it too, right? :-) Last night while making dinner I noticed I had a smiley face smiling back at me. So I continued digging to see if it was a fluke or more. I found three faces in the remainder loaf of bread!!! Am I looney toones or what??? hahaha!!!

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Happy Father's Day! Someday.

Father's Day is another one of those days where I get sad that we do not have our baby here with us, yet. A day where I see that Charles is affected by these Empty Arms we have.

For you honey, 'A Look Into The Future'.
© Karyn Marcinowski

Someday, I’ll stand beside you, holding your hand, to let go of a life filled with love, and though you will be gone, I’ll always have the memories we’ve made together Daddy…

Someday, I’ll hold out my own child to you, and ask “Would you like to hold your grandchild, Daddy?” knowing that my children will forever be safe in your arms, just as I was in yours so long ago Daddy…

Someday, I’ll stand beside you, holding your hand, walking down the aisle to start my own life, my own family, with a man I love almost as much as I love you Daddy…

Someday, I’ll hold out my hand, and say “Daddy, please?” as I ask for the keys, to start my journey, to start a career, but I won’t forget to call Daddy…

Someday, I’ll stand beside you, but that doesn’t mean I agree with you, for we will fight, and you will probably win, and I may say things I don’t mean Daddy…

Someday, I’ll hold your hand, and wonder what this new school will be like, and you will reassure me that everything will be alright, and I’ll be glad you’re there with me Daddy…

Someday, I’ll stand beside you, although wobbly, and you’ll have to hold me up, for I have to learn how to walk on my own, but I still need you Daddy…

Someday, all these things might happen, but for now, you hold me tight, and I stare at your tear-filled eyes with my own new eyes, for today is my birth day, you and Mommy made me nine long months ago, and I’m finally here, and Daddy…

I love you so


Someday, honey. Someday, hopefully Someday in March 2010, we'll have our baby in our arms. Someday you'll be the best daddy! Someday, you'll give the best hugs and be the best role model. Someday, you'll laugh so hard you cry and wrestle until bed. Someday, you'll be the proud daddy who is showing off his bundle of joy to the world instead of being in the crowd smiling for someone elses' bundle of joy. Someday honey...

New Header!!

What ya think??? No more Mickey Mouse images when I see my blog title! :-) Thank you Sassy for doing this for me!!!!!!!!!!

Now, I must figure out why in the world my sub title headings are suddenly Christmas colors... haha! They were all red to match the whole red in the border of my header. I don't understand HTML! hahaha!

Thank you again Sassy! I love it! Charles will be happy that 'Arms' is no longer the odd ball out.

Now I must go pack and stop playing on the blog as Charles is at work and he worked diligently the last two days packing so now it's my turn... Argh. I hate moving! But am ever so grateful for the place we are moving into. Am I allowed to be that contradicting??? :-) Why, yes, I am. It is my blog and all. hahaha!

Photos!!!

Becuase way too many photos were taken to only choose a few and too many to upload them all, take a look at my photos from my recent trip to Georgia! Yes, I have facebook so feel free to add me as a friend if you wish! But you like not too, that's cool too. Just take a look at my photos from Georgia. :-)

Enjoy!

Cycle Update

Last night I took my last Provera pill to induce my period so we can get the show on the road... Once my period arrives, hopefully early this next week, I'm to have all the lovely bloodwork done by like cycle day 3 or 4. I don't know, realistically, how long it takes to get all the results back. We're not going to do any treatments until we have all the results back so instead, I'm going to pop Soy again this cycle so hopefully I'll have a "normal" cycle.

So, if we happened to conceive this cycle, we would be due the end of March. We do not want an April or May baby as everyone and their mama (literally) on Charles' side of the family (minus Charles and his dad) have April and May birthday's. We, selfishly for our baby, want their birthday to be special all on their own as it will forever be a day we longed and prayed for. It will be special to us. Just like people go out of their way to celebrate a seperate birthday for those born on/around Christmas. We don't want them to be overlooked amongst the excitement of everyone else's birthday in those two months. I know, it's crazy and probably stupid, but to us, it's a big deal. Birthday's are a BIG deal.

Not to mention, the newest niece, Allyson, first birthday is in May. That's going to be a BIG deal. How horrible would it be for us to have our baby then as well and thus neither baby getting the full attention they deserve? We'll hope and pray for any of the other 10 months out of the year although I'm thinking March sounds pretty darn good! :-) We would be 36-40 weeks the entire month of March. So any date would be perfectly fine.

In saying that, we'll try this cycle with the Soy and I'll continue charting my basal body temperature and using OPKs. I'll start up Progesterone once ovulation has been confirmed and we'll pray for peace in whatever is to happen. July will be busy with settling into our new house. August, just celebrating Charles' birthday and our Sixth Anniversary. Not to mention, August holds a bad month of when SIL and my friend Alex both conceived and ended up with May babies. September I'll be in Georgia, but perhaps Florida, for my mom's birthday. October we'll probably start Injects and IUI again as this too gives us time to save up for back to back to back cycles. January if we're not pg, we'll going into IVF.

I'm also trying to take into consideration if the bloodwork reveals anything seeking additional treatment, I have given myself a few months of already prepared to deal with the non-trying status. And my Endocrinologist appointment is scheduled for August 27th, the earliest available.

Am I crazy for so not wanting an April or May baby??? I mean, if God blesses us with a baby born then, we'll embrace it. We'll go out of our way to make their day extra special as we've just waited way too long to let anyone else ruin their day. It'll be their day but our day too. Our yearly reminder of something finally pleasant for us instead of the reminder of another year passed that everyone elses' child brings to me.