Thursday, October 30, 2008

More interest!!! :-)

YIPPEEE!!!! Their have been two more ladies contact me in regards to IES (Infertility - Education and Support Group)!!!! :-) Oh, this is so exciting that hopefully IES will continue to grow and grow and reach more women who all are walking the same shoes on the same journey!! Now, I just need funds to get together a website... Oh bummer. The many roadblocks thanks to lack of funds. One day...

Onto other exciting notes in regards to IES... We have our first baby baking!!!!!!! Oh, I'm so very excited for them!!!! Can't wait for the next meeting when it's officially told to the other ladies! :-)

Um... Other exciting stuff. I'm really loving my new position at work. I even have my own e-mail address! (I can't remember it as it's super duper long AND has a thousand .'s in it! LOL)

Onto sad and frustrating and waiting on a miracle news. My cousin, whom I just found out was pg a few days ago, is now in limbo as her beta (Hcg) numbers are dropping instead of doubling and it's not looking so hot at this moment. I'm so praying that God works a miracle as they so desperately wanted this baby! They tried and tried and after four long years, SURPRISE! I am praying, and hope you all pray, for a miracle for her as she has a follow up ultra sound to check for a heartbeat. My heart just breaks for them...

THIS is what frustrates me. This is when God and I have a serious chat about His plans. WHY?? really. Why take this baby when it's already so deeply loved by so many? Why not just not give a baby to someone who's going to abuse and have their child taken away anyways... Wouldn't THAT make more sense? Ah! To know the ultimate plan. It is so hard to just trust His will sometimes... To know that HE does know what's going on in all of our lives and it will be used for His will ultimately, if we let it.

And no, that's not all that I have to say about that but for now, that's all the frustration I will type out. :-)

Anyone have any big plans for Halloween Eve??? I'm curious... Does anyone have any traditions that do NOT include trick-or-treating or perhaps even dressing up?? Whare are "out of the norm" traditions that are practiced around the world???

Be safe!

Monday, October 27, 2008

Relaxing...

I'm just curious. How does one "relax" when they are trying so desperately hard for something??? What exactly does "relax" mean??? Does it mean to give up all hope? Wouldn't that be one negative way to look at a situation?? And if that's the case, why do so many people tell you to "think positive" which in essense, tells you to have hope. Relax... Is it to no longer look at cute little onsies that say "Who needs Santa, I've got Grandparents!" or "New in Town" with cute little baby feet on it, or how about one that looks like a gift wrap with a tag that says, "Mom and Dad's best present ever!". To drink more "adult" beverages without worry of where you are in a cycle? To take Motrin at free will? To not worry about taking all the proper vitamins and Folic Acid? What a thought. No longer popping more pills than a 90 year old person and throwing away the daily pill-popper-reminder? To plan vacations without thinking how far along you may be pregnant at that time? To get x-rays without a second thought that you could be hurting your little baby trying to grow inside you? "Relax." "Don't worry about it." "It'll Happen when it's meant to."

I'm just curious as to what RELAX means to those who throw it around so freely as a suggestion to those of us so desperately wanting to conceive a child!!!! Please, do share what your definition is... I mean, really. How does one who's heart has been so given to having a baby to call their own, to hear those words, "Mommy, I love you" just turn it all off and go about their lives as normal? To forget about all those feelings? To go out to eat, or wait, any public place in general and it seems like everyone BUT you is either pregnant or has a kid (or few) in tow and not have one single heartache to have the same thing. To never walk by or thru the baby section of any store without touching, smelling, and dreaming of buying these same items for YOUR baby. Not just to buy them and send it off to friends or family who are blessed with a child, but to actually keep them in your home for your baby that's on the way. Now tell me, HOW DOES ONE JUST...RELAX??????

Onto other things...

I just finished reading the book, "The Shack" by WM. Paul Young. Yes, I would highly suggest you reading it. :-)

Two quotes that I wanted to share from this book.

On Relationships...
"Each relationship between two persons is absolutely unique. That is why you cannot love two people the same. It simply is not possible. You love each person differently because of who they are and the uniqueness that they draw out of you. And the more you know another, the richer the colors of that relationship."

On forgiveness...
"Son, you may have to declare your forgiveness a hundred times the first day and the second day, but the third day will be less and each day after, until one day you will realize that you have forgiven completely. And then one day you will pray for his wholeness and give him over to me so that my love will burn from his life every vestige corruption. As incomprehensible as it sounds at the moment, you may well know this man in a different context one day."

Take from those what you wish. :-) When I read the book again, yes, already planning on doing so once a couple of people from my work read it, I am sure other quotes will be shared as well. Until then, go read the book! ...with a box of tissues!

Thursday, October 23, 2008

GREAT news day!!!!!

So, Charles's trainer requested he be checked out on the first level!!!!!! YEAH!!! He did the test run and is now Ground Meter and Clearance Certified! This is wonderfully exciting and means a nice pay raise too for him! :-) I'm SOOOO very proud of him!!!!

Um, other great news but I can't share just yet... Just know it's all fantastic news!

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Not sure.

And this is pretty much the blankness of thoughts that I have in regards to this post. Life's been crazy. I got a promotion at Lowe's. I am now the Installed Sales Coordinator which is cool. Learning lots. It's not my ideal job but it does have some nice perks. :-) My first day was this past Monday. Charles has good and bad days with training... Between us and our crazy schedules, we spend as much time together as possible (and while I type this, he's at work).

We've decided we want to win the lottery, k? So, if anyone knows the winning numbers please do share with us and we'll be more than generous with your cut. :-)

This week is National Infertility Awareness Week. Please do be thoughtful of others feelings that you may or may not know about. Perhaps you should take extra time to ask questions and show true empathy as to what one is feeling. Perhaps I should insert a disclaimer. :-) Don't ask unless you truly want to hear as someone like myself is not ashamed to tell you what we've tried, not tried, and not willing to try while also telling you a whole lot more TMI that you really don't care about but to someone suffering from Infertility means a great deal! My heart breaks for every woman that has ever desired to have a child that has been unable to do so current for whatever reason it may be.

Onto other news... While my waist line has been expanding, and unfortunately not due to the miracle of life inside me, Charles and I have decided to watch it shrink. :-) We have both jumped back on the bandwagon called the South Beach Diet as of Monday as well. The first few days are always the hardest and talk about serious sugar withdrawls!!!! It's crazy what your body does when it doesn't have this crap! So, hopefully by the end of the year I'll be able to pull out all those smaller clothes I've kept and prance around a cut little snow bunny instead of some fat snow ball this winter! :-)

And well, that's about it for now. Hopefully the next post will be a whole lot more exciting!

Monday, October 6, 2008

Visit to Georgia

I'm back and recovered but not that there was much to "recover" from other than the total lack of sleep! It was great visiting with my family... Although it's only been a few months (3 months and a couple days to be exact) it was great to see everyone! The flight in was good, other than the pilot putting on the breaks in the AIR and then totally slamming on the breaks once on the run way. We all ended up eating the chairs in front of us from that one. So, on the plane, I sat in the first row behind first class. I wasn't good enough for first class on this flight. In the last row, opposite side of the plane sat a guy whom I thought looked an awful lot like Ben Affleck. Yes, I thought I was sitting within spitting (not that I'd spit on him) distance of a celebrity! I never said anything. Like to continue believing this. ;-) Got off the plane and was met by my dad. I spent the first 1 1/2 days with my dad, Jodi, and brothers. yes, I managed to see ALL my brothers! :-)

Friday afternoon I was then picked up by my mom after work and spent the next 24 hours with her until I had to be back at the airport to head home to my lovely husband who had to work instead of come with me! It was a great visit!

In the midst of all this, I saw Alex, Caleb and Cole Thursday night. Friday night Chris, Alice, and the girls came down to my mom's for a lovely visit and Saturday I saw Nicki and Kirby and Devin and Colin. In such a short amount of time, all these kids have grown so much!!!!

One thing I learned... Although I pretty much grew up there and my family is ALL there, home is where your heart is and my heart was in Missouri with my husband.

I'm working on getting pics up and will post when I do! :-)