Saturday, November 6, 2010

Slapped in the face!

Not literally. Just frustrating that infertility seems to creep up and try to steal all joy.

I sit here with my two week old daughter whom we could not imagine our life without. Thousands of dollars wasted on all those negative home pregnancy tests, ovulation predictor kits, Doctor appointments, ultrasounds, blood work, herbs, vitamins, pills, and shots all worth it for her. Yet infertility has a way of creeping in and bringing back all the flood of emotions with a simple check of the mailbox.

A letter from our insurance company. The same insurance company we switched to at the beginning of the year although more expensive, just for the fantastic infertility coverage it offered. Inside this envelope, typed in black and white, were the words I did not want to read the most...

Infertility related medications {pills and injectibles}, monitoring for infertility related treatments, or any infertility related treatments themselves were no longer being covered.

:-( My heart sank. Yes we love our Madelyn and at this exact moment are not moving forward with treatments but hope to start trying to conceive a sibling for Maddie once my period arrives {exclusively breastfeeding on demand until six ish months} but won't start treatments until she weans. That's not the point though. It's the knowledge that insurance is no longer our "back up". We will have to save and fork over the big bucks for a single try.

ARGH! Infertility sucks!

3 comments:

Cathy said...

This sucks Meghan! Sorry to hear that.

Kristen said...

JMO but it's kinda pessimistic to think you won't conceive naturally again when you conceived Madelyn naturally, ya know? It is possible and those big bucks could very potentially be well saved and used for education or the all and ever present needs of your baby(ies). Not a critique, just a more optimistic look at things. :)

Anonymous said...

I just want to say, as a PCOS-sufferer myself, and a mom, PCOS tends to get slightly better after pregnancy and birth. Please don't get too worried too soon, you might not even need any treatment. I know of many examples where the first baby is really difficult to conceive and the second baby isn't. Of course, after years of infertility, you are very worried of having to go through the same thing again. PCOS-sufferers have different issues than other people with infertility issues. We usually have great egg-quality, a healthy uterus and PCOS gets better with age and pregnancies. Enjoy your little one and don't worry too much about baby no. 2 just yet!