Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Universal sign?

As Charles and I sat waiting in the lab last week {I had to drop off my lovely 24 hour urine sample, different story}, we were sitting directly across another couple. She had already had blood work done and he was waiting on his turn. They were obviously together...

As I sat there, my heart ached though. I just had a feeling they were there for infertility related reasons. Nothing was said between them and us yet I felt the need to try to hide my belly. As they were leaving, she made a comment about needing to go make a follow up appointment and I watched as they walked into Dr. Ahlering's {Reproductive Endocrinologist that I actually saw for a short time if you recall} office directly across from the lab we were sitting in.

At that exact moment, I wanted to run to them and tell them our story. I was not just another "fertile myrtle" that gets knocked up the first time trying or heck, on accident. No. I remember the heartache and have a journey behind our miracle baby. It was then that I wish all women and babies born after infertility struggles had like a universal sign... Only a sign that other infertiles would recognize in the hopes of lessening the pain by giving hope that miracles still happen.

I hate the thought that our baby will bring sadness to couples still waiting for their miracle. I hope though that for those that know our story do not find sadness but remain hopeful that indeed miracles happen...

3 comments:

Laura Ball said...

I know what you're going thru! I've said it and thought it MANY times!! I dealt with the same issues with infertility myself! Being a Nurse in the ER didn't help, before I got pregnant I would see girls all the time for pregnancy related issues and after I got pregnant it was the ones that were actively miscarrying that were the hardest to deal with! I have a VERY good friend that has gone thru the same infertility issues as well and with 1 failed IUI and 2 failed IVF cycles...she gave up...which turned out to be JUST what the doctor ordered!! She's PREGNANT (about 7-8 weeks)!! Anyway, I just understand wanting to hide the belly but honestly at this point...there is NO hiding that thing!

Jessica said...

Your story keeps me hopeful!! I wish we all had a sign too, so we could see all the sucess story's of the once "infertiles".

T said...

We do not have a sign?! I thought all this time there was something on my forehead! You know.... the reason I have received all those sad, pitiful, depressing looks. :O)