Sunday, July 25, 2010

Missing "the girls"

The last couple of weeks, I've really been struggling with my feelings and family and bringing this baby into the world. It's not my family drama to tell, so I won't. It is breaking my heart though, so I type.

I never imagined "the girls" not being apart of this excitement of adding a new cousin to the growing family. I never imagined that I would be missing out on so much of their lives. I am saddened by the dreams I keep having and pray that they are not true. I pray for "the girls" often and hope that they know I will always love them. I just want things to go back to how they were, well, not completely as healing needs to happen...

I miss the laughter. The tears. The smiles. The hugs. The stories. The squeals. The texts. The fights. The boy drama. The future hoped for. The teenage life. The three distinct personalities. The life we shared.

I miss "the girls".

1 comment:

mom said...

I know you miss them, and I am sure they miss you terribly!!! One day things will turn around, it won't bring back the days you lost, but things will turn around and you'll have your girls back.