Sunday, March 22, 2009

Fate.

Today was the day a home pregnancy test was supposed to determine my fate of being a mother or not, right? Well, no pee stick was needed this AM. I woke to the lovely "red lady singing". :-( It's SOOOOO over. This is heavy and cramps and yeah. If a baby were to survive this kind of lining shedding then I'd stand in awe with my chin on the ground in disbelief. It's time to stop the Progesterone supplements and embrace the ending of this cycle and the beginning of another filled with hope and opportunity!

Now that I have accepted and embraced another new cycle starting, I have a couple of questions that are being left unanswered. I've been on some sort or another of Progesterone Supplements before and NEVER have I started my period while ON them... I mean, I can understand the spotting that lasted for about six hours but other than that, this is HEAVY. Why didn't the Progesterone stop it or delay it from coming? If I had a good ovulation, shouldn't that have built up Progesterone as well??? And my leutal phase (the time after ovulation and before your period arrives) was only 10 days, counting the spotting as a vital day as well, which is the minimum they say is needed to sustain a pregnancy...

SO anyways... Thank you so much to everyone who has been praying for us, we genuinely are grateful that we are carried in times like this when all we want to do is be held.

I'll update on the new plan of action once we know what it is... For now I'll go and clean to my little heart's desire and get ready for my first day of nanny'ing two adorablly precious twin baby boys tomorrow and then off to the Dr for the next steps! I'm trying to keep positive here... :-)

...I cannot leave without asking for your prayers for my Grandma. She's in the hospital with possible congestive heart failure, kidney infection, and a suspected blood clot in her lung... I have not seen her in many years, well, since 2003 I believe when my mom was so sick in the hospital. I really don't want to see her in the state she is in and was looking forward to being reunited with her, and so many of my other family members, at the hopefully planned Family Reunion in October this year...

3 comments:

Sassy said...

I'm glad to see your comments are working again. And again, I just wanted to say how sorry I was about this cycle and I hope your grandma is feeling better and out of hospital soon.

squirrelgirl said...

I tried for TWO days to post a comment so I'm glad to see it back up as well. {{{HUGS}}} I'm so sorry the witch showed, but you seem to be taking it well. Onward to this next cycle, which will hopefully be the blessed one. And I think you should do the pee stick pics again - that was fun to track.

Cathy said...

Aww big hugs Meghan! I hope that, on a good note, you had a wonderful first day with the twins :-) I can't wait to hear how it went!!