tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8089789578809802571.post5482088599326161341..comments2023-06-28T06:55:14.219-04:00Comments on Swann's Pond: Ugly Side.The Swann'shttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03897080926759273403noreply@blogger.comBlogger7125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8089789578809802571.post-26145090448678745082010-01-12T21:10:09.030-05:002010-01-12T21:10:09.030-05:00You are so not alone with this post, but most peop...You are so not alone with this post, but most people won't go as far as you do and admit it. I'll fully admit that on some days I'm really p.o. about my entire situation. Do I think adopting a baby is going to solve it? No. Am I angry at all the idiots I see get pregnant, the dumb students I have that are pregnant, and so on? Your damn right I am. Will I ever get over it? Probably not truly. I'll move past it and let it go, but will I ever be over it? I don't think so. Each day it gets a bit better, but some days are better than others. :) I too also relish the support I have found online. It has been a godsend.TwoDogMamahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14786932497180548480noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8089789578809802571.post-19845892865035170722010-01-12T10:40:19.188-05:002010-01-12T10:40:19.188-05:00I completely agree with you on almost every "...I completely agree with you on almost every "ugly" thing that you mentioned. I hate all those emotions and feelings! They are so ugly! The sermon at church this past Sunday was extremely convicting along the lines of holding grudges against those fertiles around us (especially the ones that "accidentally" got pregnant).<br /><br />"Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you." Ephesians 4:31-32<br /><br />He talked about these "dangerous emotions". How God desires us to be filled with love, joy, peace, not bitterness and resentment. He said that it is an insult to the Holy Spirit when we harbor these emotions because if our life is completely given over to Him, He can get rid of these feelings. The Spirit of God should be controlling my emotions and actions. It is our flesh that is holding on to them...<br /><br />So true...and so hard to fully let the Spirit control me and my crazy ugly emotions!Lisahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09799432966799440488noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8089789578809802571.post-92006064612743492552010-01-12T00:59:26.449-05:002010-01-12T00:59:26.449-05:00SO not alone. I felt a lot of the same things. a...SO not alone. I felt a lot of the same things. and while I do NOT advocate that "relaxing" is what will work, I must say that 3 of my 4 pregnancies occurred when I was NOT expecting them to (1.) accident, 2.) had given up hope, 3.) expected it to take sooooo so much longer and was completely not even thinking or worrying about it.) I did not spend NEARLY as long as you have between any of my pregnancies, but the difficulty of PCOS and then having them fail gave me the same mindset. It's easy to just want people to feel bad for you. Misery loves company. Anyway. I feel you, girl. Your posts often bring tears to my eyes and I wish nothing more than to be able to give you some REAL kind of magical baby dust. If only.Beckyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15906385661471966195noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8089789578809802571.post-38423022334477568262010-01-11T22:48:47.799-05:002010-01-11T22:48:47.799-05:00Thanks gals! Maybe I should work on a post with a...Thanks gals! Maybe I should work on a post with all the good Infertility brings out in me... :-) And not compare the length of the two. haha!<br /><br />Melissa, I love that you stated those two tings up front. I can't hate you though. I tried. hahah! :-)<br /><br />I admit, I'm so very glad the WWW has connected me to you ladies {and others too!} as it's been nothing but a blessing having such great support and encouragement when you need it the most!!!The Swann'shttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03897080926759273403noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8089789578809802571.post-4499284911799516522010-01-11T22:40:40.117-05:002010-01-11T22:40:40.117-05:00You're definitely not alone. I have felt all o...You're definitely not alone. I have felt all of those things and more. It's simply not fair or right and there's no logic to it, that some of us have to struggle while others don't. <br /><br />Here's hoping that in the end our dreams come true, and I guess what we have to go through for that to happen will make us all the more thankful. <br /><br />Meanwhile... it's normal to be angry and sad and even jealous. We have a really good reason.<br />*hugs*Emily Bhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00502193048317452144noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8089789578809802571.post-82780355345141112732010-01-11T21:11:20.051-05:002010-01-11T21:11:20.051-05:00two things 1. i got pg my first cycle trying 2. i ...two things 1. i got pg my first cycle trying 2. i have a little one.<br /><br />Even though those two things are true about me I have felt many of the same things you said above and then i feel like a gigantic jerk because God was good and gave me my daughter.<br /><br />and then i've had two miscarriages which makes me wonder...and then all of the issues i know i now have..<br /><br />IF is horrible and I wish no one ever had to deal with and i'm tired of all of the good and loving people i know not being able to have children while a lot of jerks succeed and quite often<br /><br />I think it takes great courage to be honest. I also think sometimes it's important to take care of yourself when you know that you're struggling. I've always thought how kind and generous you seem from reading your blog and this post does nothing to change my opinion of that.<br /><br />{{HUGS}}Melis.sahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11383636143112620937noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8089789578809802571.post-64000772230030548422010-01-11T20:36:20.986-05:002010-01-11T20:36:20.986-05:00You are not alone. I feel many of the same thing...You are not alone. I feel many of the same things. Infertility makes us bitter sometimes, and I think that is totally normal. <br /><br />I sent you an e-mail too, before I read this post.Jessicahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06304604705109409567noreply@blogger.com