Monday, December 29, 2008

The Plan is in Place!

WAHOO!!!!!! YIPPEE Yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Check.

First and biggest New Year's Resolution in place.

My good friend D (who really wanted to go for the Biggest Looser but doesn't have access to a video camera) and I are doing a competition weight loss! :-) I'm excited as not only will by the end of 2009 I will be where I've wanted to be for years now but I'll be celebrating in New York City on New Year's Eve!!!!!!!

Yes. This is the plan...

We start the competition on January 1, 2009 and it will end on December 31, 2009 when we weigh in for the final time in our hotel room in NYC to see who won! The person that lost will be picking up the bill for the hotel room or the airline tickets (whichever is less)! We are baseing the results on our goals. If we reached our goal, we won. If we both win, we'll split the costs!

Every Thursday we will weigh ourselves and see how much we've lost... My goal, to finally be back into a size 10 and re-kindle my love for shopping in cute little stores like my all time favorite, New York & Co! I love having the competition as although I am not really competitive by nature, there is money involved and well, she's major time competitive so I've got insentive!

Did I mention that she's now living in Rhode Island and I'm in Missouri which means this will be the first time we've seen each other since I moved in July 2008...

So, wanna know my "Game plan"???

Well. First off, The South Beach Diet and I are about to re-connect. Oh, and Charles is on this with me too although not apart of the competition. :-) And of course, putting to good use the Wii Fit we got for Christmas along with my long time furniture accessory my Eliptical. So, every so often, *AKA* Every Thursday, ask how my weight loss is going, k????

Alrighty. I'm off to enjoy the White Trash I made today as Charles has been begging for it... We've gotta wipe out the house of all the stuff that's not helping with the weight loss! LOL

So, anyone else wanna join this bandwagon?????

Sunday, December 28, 2008

1,000 plus visitors!

Holy cow! Since October 26, 2008 I have had just over 1,000 visitors!!!! Who are you people???? ;-) LOL

The conclusion has been made... Either a few select people look at my blog an awful lot OR my blog really is being checked out by a larger select crowd!

So, let's just say that with all those visitors, please say hello at least once! :-)

Thursday, December 25, 2008

Merry Christmas from The Swann's!



We wish you a very Merry Christmas and an even better Happy 2009 New Year!

*And if you wish to take part in my savvy-ness. I have made a blog button which you can grab for your own. It is located on the left top side of my blog. Just copy the code and paste it as you choose! And if you want one for your own, go here!"

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Blubbering Holiday Mess. Me. Who else?

Merry Christmas Eve blogging world!

If you wish for a cheery blog, stop there.

If you wish for real me, continue reading.

I first must start off on yesterday. It was a rough day. I was SO very pissy at the world. The guys (yes, I work at a major home improvement store so 97% of my co-workers are guys) I work with were commenting on my witchy-ness. I really didn't think I was being that pissy. The day goes on. I feel like I can cry at a single drop of a pin. I talk to some insensitive people (or at least I felt they were insensitive) and life goes on. I made about 20 pounds of Chicken Tetrazini for Charles to take to work as promised for his co-workers. I was insensitive towards a fellow TTC'er and later felt really bad about it that I had to call and apologize. It was totally hormonal!

This morning I awaken to find out that I am officially starting a new cycle. It then all made sense... I was totally PMS'ing! The world makes sense, for a moment at least.

I was eating my breakfast while reading up on some blogs and Charles came down. I let it all go. I bawled my eyes out (only about 45 minutes before I'm to be at work but who cares that my eyes were going to be all puffy and red and swollen for all the world to see). I told him that it's another failed cycle. He kindly pointed out that we didn't try this cycle. I quickly responded with "How is one to try if one doesn't even ovulate!" I cried at the thought of not being the first to make my parents grand parents... I really was hoping that since we're not TRYING to get pregnant that it wouldn't hurt so bad. I almost feel as though it hurts worse. I mean, it's just another slap in the face that trying or not, I'm not pregnant. To think that that egg that's now gone could very well have been one good one that would have bloosomed into a beautiful thriving baby to call ours! I feel as though that now that we are not actively trying that everyone expects me to not have any feelings. To just turn off that switch. To continue to be the ultimate support for everyone else and their growing babies and pregnancies yet no one for me to call and let it all out on...

Off to work i go... It's going to be a fantastic day! (Feel the sarcasm??) It's only Christmas Eve and one install all day today. The store was dead. I mean, we did have one "rush" if you so to call it that but for the most part, dead. I did, however, learn a lot about fellow co-workers. :-)

Charles and I were both able to leave a bit early and we went to Christmas Eve Service at a church we have been to only twice previously. We really like it for two reasons. One, they have Saturday night services and well, that's what we need as Charles is working every single Sunday morning making it impossible to head to church. Secondly, their worship style is so what we enjoy and are used to. Yes, it is a lot like Crossroads in that aspect. (FYI- Crossroads Church is where I have attended the majority of my life. As in from 1991ish until 2008 when we moved away. Charles and I tried other churches but always ended up back at Crossroads.) Morning Star Church is a lot smaller though. It's about 1500 people that come through the doors on any given weekend. They have Community groups too which start up again in January that we're looking forward to being apart of! The worship is awsome. The pastor and sermons are ones that you can relate to. We're still checking it all out but so far, we're totally digging it!

Now, moving on... We go tonight after stopping at Jack In the Box to get dinner (along with a Pumpkin Pie Milkshake even though it is like 20 something degrees outside!). The songs were O Holy Night, Away in a Manger, and Amazing Grace (the Chains are Gone). Things were going great... Until they played Away in a Manger. All I could think of was my mom and missing my family. (I can't even write this without darn tears!) Right about then I get a little nudge from Charles as his way of saying, "it's your song" and him thinking what I was thinking. I bawled... More so than this mornings episode!!!! Yes, I'm totally hormonal. And the tears went on throughout the entire stinking song! And then I composed again and all was well. They even had everyone get a candle and at the end we all stood and sang Silent Night with the candles lit. It was beautiful.

As we are alone this Christmas, I can only imagine, hope and dream that next Christmas we'll have a baby of our own to love and start new traditions with. Until then, if you noticed I changed the name of our blog, we are learning to live as a family of Two. Two people that so desire and long to become parents. To write out the desired Dear Santa list on Thanksgiving that was a fond tradition started by my Pops. To hear their sweet little voice sing their favorite Christmas carol over and over and over again so out of pitch it's adorable. To decoate the house and tree with, even to have all the ornaments clumped into one spot on the tree. To make a Happy Birthday Jesus cake on Christmas Eve and celebrate Jesus' birthday as this tradition was started by Charles' parents. To make cookies with for Santa to eat while putting their presents under the tree. To wake us up early Christmas morning to see what Santa left in their stocking and eventually run to open up the presents under the tree. To drive around looking at Christmas lights ooooohhhhhh and aaaaaawwwwwing and every house. And to create our own traditions that they look annoyingly forward to each and every year...

That is my Christmas Wish. And for now, I blame all this on my total hormonal blubbering PMS'ing self!

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Love the Layout (and background)???

I did it so you'd better say YES! :-) Yes. I really did it all by myself!!!!! i'm SO very proud of my illiterate computer knowledge self! I turned the standared two column blog into a fabulous three column blog! Now, you can check out my ads and perhaps help support me by purchasing through these wonderful links! And, if you're into changing your two column blog to a three column one yourself and know NOTHING about HTML (such as myself) please look here! It's all thanks to this website that I was able to do it!

And, if you're digging the new background, check out this website! They have tons of backgrounds to choose from and even a special link if you're gone to the three column layout!

So, now that I'm officially proud of myself, and I know that you are too, it's time to blog on baby!

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Busy, busy December!

Gosh. It's been awhile since I last posted... Sorry, to those who actually read, for my absence. A quick re-cap.

My mom and Ray came and visited the first weekened of December. We did touristy stuff around downtown Saint Louis. Went to the Budweiser Museum and took a tour. Went to the Arch. They did not go up as it was a very over cast day so you wouldn't be able to see much but we did tour the museum of the Lewis and Clark Adventures. Went to the casino where we all lost money. haha. Explored downtown St. Charles in FREEZING weather and decided to finish that in Spring when they come back for a longer visit. Um, Went up to the tower where Charles works. It makes me so proud to see my husband taking pride in his profession. :-) And we just spent wonderful time together! Oh how I miss my mom... I'll post photos soon!

The weekend after, Charles' parents came over for the weekend for a visit. Unfortunately, I was working this weekend so we were kind of limited. We went to the casino where three out of four of us lost money. Chuck walked away with money. We watched some movies and of course, ate Bob Evans. haha!

in the midst of this, I had a vision/thought/dream. Whatever you wish to call it. I am going to write a book! **Pause for slight chuckle to occur.** Really. I know. It's crazy. The only thing I'll say about it is that yes, it is indeed a book in regards to Infertility. That's all I'll say... For now. I've got three outlines on paper. I'm just praying and seeking God's guideance in this.

The funniest thing is that it seems the more I try to get away from babies/pregnancy/infertility the closer I seem to be pulled towards it! The thought of opening up and digging deep into infertility is not really appealing. Perhaps it's my new form of therapy??? I mean it seems like babies, pregnancies, and infertility are GROWING around me!

*Completely relevant yet irrevant at the same time*

I mean, I do work at a rather LARGE Home Improvement Retailer and when the displays were being redone and all the "old" went to clearance what did they happen to be of??? You got it. Duckies. So, needless to say I now have my complete babies bathroom done. Well, almost. I have a cloth duckie shower curtain. A duckie soap dish, toothbrush holder, cup and curtain rings. All this for.... Ready? $3.50!!!!!!! How am I supposed to pass up a deal such as that??? It's impossible!

Perhaps it's just me though? So, anyways. Just figured I'd P.S. you who read into that aspect. We shall see what/if anything occurs from this journey!

This weekend we are just relaxing... We both have the time off so it's nice to just sit back and relax. Next weekend, my dad and Jodi will be here! I'm excited to be able to spend time with them!!

And now I must be off to cook some dinner for my husband who after 5+ years has not learned that my cooking skills are not up to par and that he should just permanently take over all cooking involvements!

Friday, December 5, 2008

Rental house nightmare!!!

Today is supposed to be perfect. A day I've been looking forward to pretty much since I moved here in July. The days my mom and dad come to visit! Dad and Jodi have been here so it's mom and Ray's turn! Let's rewind before I jump too into the story though.

First. This was going to be even better and Daniel was to join but nooooooooooooo. He's got more important things to do... *It's okay. I love you anyways.*

Secondly. Last night, all is going well. Nothing out of the ordinary. We go to bed. Jack's walking up and down the stairs driving us crazy. Off to dream land we drift...

I woke up this morning and headed to the laundry room to turn on the dryer again so I can pull out my clothes as I'm too lazy to iron. When I open the door, there is brown stuff in like a huge circle around the drain. I called Charles down and told him I think the laundry room was flooded at one point. he agrees as it is even still wet.

We continue on.

After breakfast, I go to the bathroom. When I flushed the toilet, Charles went running to the laundry room as he thought he heard something. Sure enough. We have an even bigger wet area and this time, with fresh standing water. Lovely.

Charles calls our landlord. While he is trying to explain the standing water and figure out where it is coming from I am frantically trying to get all my Christmas boxes out as the water is growing. It's now about one foot from reaching opposite side walls. After playing the guessing game for about 20 minutes, the conclusion comes.

The water is from the main drain of the house. Yep. The sewer pump. We have poop water sitting in our laundry room!!!!!!!!!!! EEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mom and Ray are to be arriving in about three hours and um, we cannot use ANY water. No bathrooms. No showers. No brushing of teeth. No NOTHING! :-( So. Let's just say that I stink and have very bad morning breath! What a way to greet someone I have not seen in awhile...

Shall I add that this house has been a nightmare. It has been one thing after another... Thankfully. We DO have a landlord that is pretty responsive and fixes things pretty quickly. That is a good thing.

I guess this is one of the many aspects of life. Sliding glass doors let water in to flood the carpet in front of it. Sewers backup for whatever reason. The dishwasher is crap so you have to wash the dishes before actually washing them. There is this annoying dripping sound that you can hear oh so clear standing in our bedroom or bathroom. No clue where it is coming from.

BUT. on the contrary. I do have a roof over my head. Nothing, that we can tell, has been ruined from this incident. And lastly, the appropriate attention has been given today by our landlord... Oh the wonders and joys. Want to see photos??? Nah.

Monday, December 1, 2008

My Blog award!

It's about time I did this, right??? :-)

My blog was nominated by none other than Miss K's mommy! Thanks!


It's my turn to give this award to five fabulous bloggers! So, for my addition I applaud...

Cathy - http://www.ajourneytoconception.blogspot.com/

Marcelle - http://makingbabies-sa.blogspot.com/

Chrissy - (When she updates!) - http://oneandoneisthree.blogspot.com/

Annie - http://mylifeintwoweekintervals.blogspot.com/

Angie - http://audreycaroline.blogspot.com/

My Fabulous Five Addictions:

1 ~ The Internet! I love Googling. I love Blogs. I love my SOP/TWW girls!

2 ~ Ice Cream. Any flavor. Any season. Any add-ins. I LOVE ice cream!!!

3 ~ My new Wii. It's so much fun!!!!! And now that we have TWO controlers Charles and I can battle each other! :-)

4 ~ Our doggies. Jack and Jill. They are hilarious!

5 ~ And lastly... An addiction I'm TRYING to rid myself of but boy is it hard! Any and everything dealing with babies... Making babies. Growing baby inside me. Caring for baby. Growing baby outside me.

Here are the rules to receiving this award:

1. You have to pass it on to 5 other fabulous blogs in a post.

2. You have to list 5 of your fabulous addictions in the post.

3. You must copy and paste the rules and the instructions below in the post.Instructions: On your post of receiving this award, make sure you include the person that gave you the award and link it back to them. When you post your five winners, make sure you link them as well. To add the award to your post, simply right-click, save image, then "add image" it in your post as a picture so your winners can save it as well. To add it to your sidebar, add the "picture" gidget.Also, don't forget to let your winners know they won an award from you by emailing them or leaving a comment on their blog.